The only new years resolution I have come up with so far is to start a blog. And I just came up with that one about 5 minutes ago. But I'm proud of myself for already beginning to implement this momentous challenge in my life.
Not to immediately stray off topic and display my affluent ADD-ness, but last night I had a horrifying nightmare that made me wake up abruptly in the middle of the night the way they do in movies when the character is haunted by some intense (though predictable) prophetic vision of the future. What a great way to start off 2008. Thanks a lot my troubled unconscious mind. Not that I don't have enough 'conscious' problems dictating my life already, but to know that both my sleep and waking state are equally plagued by nightmarish scenes that I cannot seem to wake up or fall asleep away from.
*sigh* Anyways, I don't remember too much of the details of the dream because upon awakening, it frightened me so much, that after confirming that I did not pee my pants (again), I tried immediately and desperately to forget about it so that I could peacefully go back to sleep. But my body, ever so slow to respond to external/internal stimuli, was still in sleep paralysis and my mind was in what seemed like a psychological quicksand that was pulling me back into sleep.
My unconscious: No!! Don't wake up yet! I haven't finished telling you about your deep-seated psychological problems that I have animated and narrated into a lovely tale of death and damnation.!!
Conscious brain: Shut up I don't care!!! !@^#$&^%#^!@*$&^(!@*#&)(#)$*&)(!@&#! Stop that!! This is scaring me!! Why do you think I don't watch scary movies directed by people from my own ethnic background!!
I dreamed that I had disappeared in my dream. I don't remember exactly what I did, but I did something in my dream that caused me to disappear in my dream. By altering an action in the past (or future?), I had consequently disrupted my existence in the present to where I no longer existed. And this was such a surprise outcome to the me-in-my-dream, that it made the me-in-waking-life to wake up. Unfortunately this all sounds like a bad twilight episode (are there good ones?), or my unconscious mind's warped interpretation of Back to the Future part II.
Anywho, neither the year or this blog seems to be off to a good start, because really this blog is supposed to be about my art. Will return later for the art stuff.
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